Monday, March 24, 2014

Monday Musings: A New Year, A New Life

I know that I said I wanted to post two or three times a week. Yeah. About that... I actually had a few half written and edited posts in my cue. But, every time I sit down to finalize something, this happens:

And, of course, she is so cute I don't really mind. But, today is my thirty first birthday, so I thought I owed it to myself to try to do a tiny bit of reflecting in between snuggles, feeding, and diapers.

While I was pregnant, I would often think, "Am I really old enough to be a parent?" Obviously, the answer is yes. At thirty one, I am not even a terribly young mother. Thirty one just seems so much older than thirty to me. When you are turning thirty, it is this major milestone, and then thirty one just puts you in your early thirties. That sounds so...old. Yikes. How did that happen?

I am such a freak about birthdays. I love them so much and always like to celebrate mine for the month of March week leading up to the big day! I talk about presents, and what I'll eat on my special day (invariably donuts), and how I want to celebrate. But this year, I didn't really do any of that. In fact, I almost forgot my birthday was coming. I've been preoccupied...

I thought I was coping pretty well with minimal sleep. I mean I am coping pretty well, but it isn't until I actually try to write something coherent that I realize that performing daily tasks necessary for life and actually using the brain to compose something thoughtful are two entirely different things! When I think about what I'd most like this year for my birthday, it is probably four to six hours of uninterrupted sleep. A girl can dream, right? My goal for this birthday? Sometime this week--publish the two posts I have been trying to finish for two weeks. I'm starting small...

Hope this Monday you are feeling rested and refreshed. I plan to retain some semblance of my former self by celebrating with a breakfast of one (or maybe a few) donuts. That sounds like all the celebration I need.

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Tuesday Musings: Living With Baby

I can't believe I've been away for two weeks! Among many of the changes I've experienced in the interim is my new relationship to time--I have no idea what day it is, what month it is, and what time it is. I started writing this post days ago, but couldn't finish it until last night. I have watched the sun come up more times in the last two weeks than I have in the last (almost-gasp) 31 years. And--in case you hadn't heard-- I have a child! Wowzah!!

I wanted to write a post about what motherhood has been like thus far, but I am realizing that I don't really have the mental energy to compose my thoughts. So many things are swirling around in my brain about how my life has changed, and how I've changed, about what I've learned, and how much more I don't know (and wish I did), but I think that if I try to write about all that right now, it will just be a jumble of non sequiturs, so suffice it to say that having a child is, as everyone says, the most life changing thing that can happen to a person, and I plan to share more about that when I'm running on more than three hours of sleep!

I have been thinking about the blog during this time that I've been away and missing this space, so I would like to get back to trying to blog at least a few times a week going forward. I am going to try to post 2-3 times a week utnil things settle into a bit more of a routine. I hope you'll check back often to see what's up!

The picture above is from an impromptu trip to the beach with Neve, Jeff, and my sister who is visiting us (and basically helping me to maintain my sanity). It was really a perfect day, and little Neve was so peaceful. I can't wait to do that again.