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My brain has been a mishmash of thoughts for the last four months, as I am sure you can imagine. I felt very disinterested in blogging over the summer primarily because just waking up every morning seemed like a herculean task given the nausea and general misery that was my life. But, now that that horrible fog has cleared, I have gotten excited again about this blog and it's possibilities.
Over the weekend, I met up with an old friend that I hadn't seen in almost ten years; we reconnected thanks to this blog. She had started reading along and reached out to me when she was moving to the San Francisco area. While we were talking over lunch, I mentioned why I started the this project in the first place.
I began my current profession straight out of college. I went to grad school, but continued to work while I was doing that. So, for the last nine years I've been doing the same thing, essentially. And it wasn't a profession I necessarily chose with intention. I sometimes feel more like I fell into it, and it fit in a lot of important ways, so I kept doing it. But, then there came a critical moment where I wondered if I had come too far to ever do anything else. I felt like my skills wouldn't allow me to venture into other professions should I want to give something else a go. And maybe that's true, and maybe it isn't. But, I've always been a believer that it is best to feel like you're choosing the life you have and not like you are existing by default.
So, I figured that a safe way to try something totally foreign to me would be to start a blog about all the frivolity I secretly adore but sometimes feel is at odds with my more academic career. Being the risk averse person that I am, I didn't have to give anything up to do it (save a great deal of my time), and I could see what else I might be capable of.
In a world where people live longer and longer, it seems possible to reinvent yourself over the course of your life. I have watched both my parents do it time and time again with different ventures and jobs that fit different phases of their lives. I think that possibility for reinvention is really exciting and also really scary. I enjoy what I do, but I also wonder what else my life could look like. This blog allowed me a tiny window into something different.
If I were to take a risk, what would I dream of doing? Maybe the answer is just what I'm doing right now. And maybe it's something I haven't even thought of yet. And maybe (actually, probably) I'm thinking about reinvention because I'm about to reinvent myself and my life if the most profound way possible...
Have any of you ever reinvented yourselves? I'd love to hear about it.